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3 weeks ago | 
iwilldowhateveriwant.substack.com | Mackenzie Thomas
We’ve been doing this for a year now. It’s funny—I started this blog in March, a month I’ve never had any reason to look forward to. In fact, I’ve always considered it my least favorite month. But now, I guess it’s our month. It’s our anniversary. Honestly, I didn’t think I’d keep up with the blog.
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1 month ago | 
iwilldowhateveriwant.substack.com | Mackenzie Thomas
I only have one rule about sharing on the internet- things in development are strictly off-limits. This is ironic due to the nature of who I am, often I’m called ‘vulnerable’ which is something I take in stride, but I don’t know if it’s completely true. Maybe I have the concept of vulnerability all wrong, I feel like if I was truly vulnerable I would share my emotions as they come to me, but I despise chaos.
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2 months ago | 
iheartmess.com | Emily Kirkpatrick |Mackenzie Thomas
Hi hi hi!Hope you are well and staying warm. Is anyone else waking up every day with a deep need to unleash a primordial scream but you’re afraid if you start you’ll never stop?
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2 months ago | 
jessicadefino.substack.com | Jessica Defino |Emily Kirkpatrick |Mackenzie Thomas
Current time: 0:00 / Total time: -5:28Audio playback is not supported on your browser. Please upgrade. We’re back with another very special paid subscriber only episode of The Review of Mess: a podcast collaboration between The Review of Beauty (by me, Jessica DeFino) and I <3 Mess (a fashion newsletter from Emily Kirkpatrick). For this installment, we invited the iconic , writer of the newsletter , to join us in conversation.
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2 months ago | 
iheartmess.com | Emily Kirkpatrick |Mackenzie Thomas
We’re back with another very special paid subscriber only episode of The Review of Mess: a podcast collaboration between and I <3 Mess. For this installment, we invited the iconic Mackenzie Thomas, writer of the newsletter ★ I WILL DO WHATEVER I WANT ★, to join us in conversation. Today we’re talking about: FKA Twigs and Eusexua vs.
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2 months ago | 
iheartmess.com | Emily Kirkpatrick |Mackenzie Thomas
Hello, my loves!Happy Valentine’s Day to all the stupid Cupids both near and far. I am tragically (gloriously) single so I will not be out there celebrating with all you lovesick individuals packed like sardines into every overpriced restaurant in NYC this evening, but I will gladly eat a heart-shaped piece of chocolate with you in solidarity. I suppose I do have one special Valentine in my life, my dog Fran. I realized recently I haven’t forced a picture of her upon you in an eon.
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2 months ago | 
iwilldowhateveriwant.substack.com | Mackenzie Thomas
I’m starting to think all my uncomfortablity might be paying off. I think it’s always hard to admit to yourself, especially when you’re in the thick of it, that the only way out is through. Though I’m writing this as I’m nursing a minor cold with a broken sink in the kitchen and a leaky radiator beside me— I think I’ve finally reached the next version of myself.
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Jan 24, 2025 | 
iwilldowhateveriwant.substack.com | Mackenzie Thomas
Audio playback is not supported on your browser. Please upgrade. Before you scroll, I recorded a very special substack exclusive song for you to listen to during your read. I was 19 when I got high for the first time. I was in my friend Andrew’s dorm room, we got brownies off of a senior who was in a class with our friend Jillian.
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Jan 24, 2025 | 
iwilldowhateveriwant.substack.com | Mackenzie Thomas
I texted my roommate two days ago to apologize to her for my distance. She told me earlier this week that she felt as if I was pulling away. The two of us have always been close, but during the events of the last two months, I’ve found it difficult to be an active participant in anyone’s life besides my own. I said my sorrys and told her not to worry because I was feeling like “my old self again” which was a complete lie.
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Jan 24, 2025 | 
iwilldowhateveriwant.substack.com | Mackenzie Thomas
Strange month for a plethora of reasons.Struggled to keep up with work. Felt weird about everything. Had health problems. Started a new medication to try to prevent anything bad from happening to me ever again. Ended up at my boyfriend’s brother’s wedding in California. Here are my notes from June: I saw a girl wearing a “this is what a feminist looks like” t-shirt today for the first time since 2015, and it actually gave me SUCH a strong sense of peace.
